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The Awkward Load

The guilt-trip program doesn’t just ask you to carry a load — it demands you bend your back in unnatural ways until you hurt yourself. But the load was never yours to begin with.

Wednesday, August 27, 2025

Guilt Stress Trauma

Metaphorical Narrative

The secret recording whispers its strange command: “Do XYZ in such a way that it proves you are guilty of ABC.”
But it’s not just the demand. It’s the posture it forces. You don’t carry the load straight; you bend your back at awkward angles, straining muscles, hurting yourself in the process. The weight is foreign. The way of carrying it is foreign. The injury is foreign.

It’s a setup designed for pain — not purpose.

Core Insight

Guilt-tripping doesn’t stop at giving you false rules. It scripts the very manner of doing them — contorted, exhausting, unnatural. The activity itself is a stress signature. The outcome is an anxiety signature. Together, they create trauma residue that tricks you into thinking the pain is necessary.

But the truth is simpler: no one knows why you are doing this — not even the script. The whole posture is meaningless. If it isn’t in your calendar, the load is not yours.

Saturday Experiment

  1. Notice when you feel yourself bending — taking on tasks in ways that feel awkward, heavy, or self-hurting.
  2. Ask: Whose posture is this?
  3. Straighten up. If it’s not your calendar, drop the load completely.

Sunday Reflection

  • When did they feel their body bending under a foreign load?
  • How did they recognize the posture was not their own?
  • What shifted when they straightened up and chose not to carry it at all?